I have been absolutely terrible with my eating and going to the gym, I havent gone to the gym once this week, but that was because I haven’t been at school for the majority of the week because I have been sick, but my eating has been terrible, I have decided that monday morning I am going to start again, clean new. I need to do this! This is the last year that I will have time/ the facilities. Please leave me motivational messages? I will forever be grateful.
Here is another ploy to get me to continue working out, every 10 days I workout I will get $5 and every goal I meet I will get $10 from my parents.
It only takes 21 days to create a habit!
LETS DO THIS RIGHT
Getting skinnier will not automatically secure you a boyfriend,
Getting skinnier will not ensure that all the guys that were asses will apologize. (they probably wont.)
But gaining confidence is going to make guys want to talk to you, see you in a different light.
But gaining confidence will surely make them see what they missed out on.
Remember this.
This week was a major set back in my weight loss, but you know what? It will never stop me. I will just work harder, train longer and be fitter! I am going to do this, I just want my followers to know that it may take me a 10 months, a year or maybe even 2 years. Regardless how long it takes I will get to my goal weight. I will feel better within myself. I can and I will do this. I promise.
I am NOT on tumblr just to get followers and become tumblr famous, to be honest I would rather not be tumblr famous. I adore my followers so much, this is because they always have my back, always support me and they always answer the questions I do not have the answer to!
I am genuinely trying to lose weight, I am doing this for me. Nobody else. Just me.
Thanks for reading this I appreciate it.
xxxx
So I weighed myself this morning and then 176lbs came up. I WAS SO HAPPY. It made me so happy, that my hard work is actually paying off! Then it was meant to be my rest day today, but I felt really bad haha. So I did 350 jumping jacks, 10 lunges and 40 squats, I also did some silly jogging haha but not for long. So it was a mini workout but my thoughts are a little bit is better than nothing. I am so pleased with myself :)
Today I left school early so that I could go and workout, I never usually do this because my dad would be really angry, but as he isnt here my mum has been letting me take bits and bobs off school. So I got to the gym and started on the treadmill, I got to 5 mins out of my 40 and the treadmill started to act up, this happened like three times. Then I was like ‘I have to just do this!’ But then my leg/knee started acting up! :( So It was such a struggle to get through it. BUT I DID! :)
You can go here to check out what I did and
here to check out what I ate today!
Rest day tomorrow!
I feel like I am doing well! :) xxxxxx
Okay, so I went out with some friends last night to this really slow party. We were there for quite a while. Then I saw this guy that I really liked, he was hooking up with 2 other girls(neither of them was his gf) so I got really upset, and drank quite a lot. Then me and my friend were standing outside sitting on our friends car, then these 3 guys came up to talk to us, one was really cute and he was the only on that was single. And he was really nice and all ;) haha but no. No more boys until I lose all my weight. But the guys had alcohol, so I was drinking some of their drinks, wine and brandy. I felt so ill last night so I ended up being really sick, like really really sick. I felt so bad because this is the first time since I have moved here that my friends have seen me this drunk. They didnt see my be sick because I never ever let anyone see me being sick. But I weighed myself and it had said I lost 5lbs but I know I didnt. I never ever want to drink ever again.
But I know that wont happen!
anyway, sorry about the rant of my teenage adventures.
I LOVE YOU ALL <3
I feel like I should update you about my night out. We went out at like 10:30 hoping to get into the club we were trying to get into no worries. We got there and went to show our ID’s. Then they said that we are not allowed to have photocopies of your IDs so we sat around for like 2 hours thinking about what to do. Then my friends boy(not boyfriend but flingy thing) was able to get us into the club. The I got pretty drunk, danced for ages and then my friend hooked up with this really hot guy and then wouldnt shut up about it, it was hilarious! But my night was very eventful but it was good. :) I weighed myself this morning and I was 178lbs :) But I have been really bad because I exercised Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday and thats it. Its my first week so I knew it would be a little unsuccessful but next week will be better! :) Hopefully I am actually 178lbs on monday. x
So usually, I try to keep my blog as upbeat and positive as possible! But right of this very moment I am not so upbeat. I don’t go back to school until Tuesday, but I am terrified. I cannot stand one of my skinny friends telling me that she ‘gained so much weight over Christmas’ or how her ‘New Years resolutions is to lose weight’. I absolutely adore my friends, and would not change them for the world. I am actually quite lucky to have them.(that’s another story) I am just a little down, because I feel like I have had so many chances to lose weight but never grabbed those opportunities. I should have. I am usually a happy, cheerful person. However, I have a feeling that you, my followers are going to see the best and worst of me. I just need everyone to promise to inspire me, motivate me and keep me going when I feel like I want to give up. (Message me if you are up for it!) This is the last chance. I want to go back to the UK at Christmas this year and have everyone be so shocked. I want them not to recognize me.
Recently I have been having these dreams that I have lost all this weight and dyed my hair black again(naturally bown/redish hair), and I am holding this party at my family’s house, I come into the room and nobody recognizes me. One of the guys that I liked and kissed(but was a total ass) goes up to my best friend and asks her who I am.
‘That’s Elle, don’t you recognize her?’
Him; ‘Woah, she looks amazing.’
Then I always wake up.
I need this to happen, I want to piss everyone off, piss them off because they had their chance with me but lost it.
